Hello, and welcome to this month's edition of the newsletter. In this e-mail, I share some experiences as I continue my recovery from my back injury.

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This Edition's Topic: Letting Go of Injuries

Although I have had pretty much normal function in my back after the injury and surgery, I've never felt like it was "good". As it hurt more, the more I thought my back was still "bad". I knew enough to know that I shouldn't be angry at my back, but I was definitely convinced that there was Something Wrong, and was starting to worry that I was going to require another surgery, or at least some other form of medical intervention.

At the same time that all of this was going on, I was starting to fully re-engage in all the activities that I was involved with before the injury. At this, my back started sending me all kinds of pain signals.

Having tried everything else, I decided to do some surrender/release work on it.

And by the way, I have to drag out my soap box here. I really, really hate the word "surrender" as applied to this topic. I don't know about other languages, but it sets up all manner of bad images in the mind; The fact that surrender is the closest word doesn't mean it's a good match. Whew. Ok, time to put the soap box away.

It had been a while since I had done some surrender/release work, so I review some reference materials. I used the sedona method book for technical assistance (like so many things, asking the right questions is of paramount importance, otherwise you may do a lot of work surrendering the thing that is almost-but-not-quite the actual issue). I also used the Higher Balance materials to remind me of the far-reaching implications and benefits of such release work, and to get my mind in the right place so as to make it easier.

What came out in the end was that I was indeed holding on to the injury, without even conscious awareness of it. I wanted to know where it went wrong, so I wouldn't let it go away, and coupled with that I also found out that even though I wasn't angry at my back, I had very much been disapproving.

I'm not a big believer in Divine Wrath. I don't buy the idea that the Source of life is just waiting like a kid with a BB gun to wait for us to pop up so we can be shot down.

That having been said, that's what I find I've been doing. Lemme 'splain. No, there is too much; let me sum up:

If you're reading this, you're probably aware that you aren't your body. Your body is made of trillions of individual organisms, each living out their lives and trying to do the best they can. You are the guiding intelligence that unifies them all into a whole. You are to your cells what Gaia is to us.

And here's where my cruelty comes in. Here I had been uncaringly ignoring my back's cries for help and attention, and had been actually showing disapproval. My back had been sending the ultimate distress signal (pain) and instead of thanking it for the wondrous gift of the awareness that brings, I started thinking about how bad my back was and what I was going to have done to it.

Can you imagine? Billions of little lives, all looking to me to guide and protect, and here I was blaming them for bringing my own carelessness to the light. I have been releasing both the desire to know what went wrong, and the disapproval of my back, and my back is as strong as it ever was, with no more twinges than one would encounter in a healthy back (in other words, only if I put it in a bad position for too long).

From pondering a second surgery to being as strong as ever. A little surrender and release goes a long way. For that matter, so does cultivating a relationship with the micro-universe we call our bodies. Take some time to get re-acquainted with yours.

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